Day 20

well this morning there was a lot more ladies helping so said hi to Elliott then left till it was play time..I was avoiding a fit.He know if he crys I will save him. So when little man got dressed I got him and brought him up to the volunteer room to hand out I also gave him a banana which all of this was a bad Idea first he would not let go of the banana second he would not eat it…He wanted to save it for later.. I then had to take the banana from his hand to go outside and play with his friend and I couldn’t let all his little friend see what I gave him. He stopped crying so I took him back in to his room. He threw the biggest fit one of the house mammas took him and put him in his crib for a time out. I let this happen ..as soon as she backed off I scooped him up and took him out of the room..can you see the issues Iam causing for this little guy…shame on me…so I have started to back of to keep him on schedule with all the kids..so when I know nap time is coming I leave him happy before time comes …to avoid a fit.. Same with dinner…I come back after dinner and still help with getting ready for bed ..that is one fit I have to deal with..I still hold him till the last minute..it just p prolongs the crying but then I just move out of the room..He loves to be sung to it cures most fits ..I have been praying like never before to have favor to get a quick court date..After the court date I can move him out of the baby home.. right now be helping out here is helping my case in court..the director is going to say I have been here helping out and spending time with Elliott..she just is going to leave out for how long…I know God is walking me through all of this and I believe God is going to shine through all of this..He is my every thing right now Iam hanging on to him for dear life..kinda like some of the kids here when you pick them up the will grab your neck and will not let you go… God is stretching me like never before..I still cant belive we have gotten to this point..when we should have just went home..instead Good is taking to broken heart and bring them together..Our God is soo Good !!!! well Elliot love being pushed in the wagon and his little red bike he cant reach the petals yet but he love climbing on it and being pushed or just sitting on it…he also loves the swing… I can tell he is trying to talk he is saying under his breath.. today went long I pray the rest of the time goes faster..I love being here I also cant wait to come home